Whenever you experience a tragic loss of any kind, it really turns your world upside down. It’s a brutal reminder that we are not in control and that someone else is calling the shots.
Whether you are a spiritual person or not, we all go through experiences that we have no control over.
For me, losing my father was a painful yet divine experience. I felt like I had my life planned out with checklists made — pen in hand. When my dad died, I felt like God ripped the pen from my grip and said “Here, let me show you what I have for you…it’s even better than your list.”
This epiphany did not come immediately. I wrestled with God for a while because I didn’t want to admit that I had no control.
The scariest moments in life are when I am not in control. Flying in an airplane is a perfect example of that. I am terrified on the takeoff and landing because that is when change is occurring. However, flying steadily at 40,000 feet is fine. This is applicable to my life when things start to shift is when I panic. I wanted to be confident in what was happening in my life and to do so I had to give into it. I loosened my grip and allowed God to write.
God has taught me in His own way how to relax and let go. Trust me, this is not easy. It takes a lot of meditated breathing and soothing sounds to make me feel relaxed enough to be okay with the fact that things will happen that are not in my control, but I am getting there one day at a time.
Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails. -Proverbs 19:21